Went with Mama to the hospital yesterday and the operation is confirmed for 11th Jan. We still do not know the stage of the cancer but for now, we are crossing fingers and hoping it's at the advance stage. We need a lot of strength to be strong for her and I admit it's getting emotionally strained to stay calm and to act like normal so as not to affect her mood. It's truly a hard time and it sometimes takes every bit of strength in me not to break into tears when I think of how we can easily lose her.
It's hard but I know God is watching on us from above. In our moments of weakness, I hope he will somehow help us pull through. Anyway, thank you guys for the words of encouragement. It may be just words but for now, it really mean a lot to me.
It's Christmas Eve now as I draft this entry. I was looking forward to this Christmas because last year's was crap. Mama's diagnosis took me by shock and I don't feel festive at all. Oh well, maybe the mood will build up tomorrow morning. Bah.
I had a wish list actually. But for this year, I am not going to be greedy and I am going to ask for just one thing - all I want for Christmas this year is for Mama to be well and healthy like before.
I am going to go look at Christmas for an hour or so. Maybe I will start feeling festive. @.@
Bye for now or rather till the next entry where you will all get to see what Ray got for me this Christmas. Guarantee you will all go "Aw....." though the effort placed in the gift cannot fight with me (yes, I very yaya one). Full story of how much effort I placed in his gift will accompany the photos. Sit tight and wait ah.....
Merry Christmas all and God bless you and your loved ones!
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