A new start...breathe again

So, it's been long, isn't it? To my followers who have been dropping emails to me asking about the new blog - here it is. Finally.

I know it sounded like a rash decision to shut the old blog but for those who have been following it, you would have seen how it all came about and how it all ended. It started with a girl who was so in love and thought things will last forever and wanted to have everything documented. In the end, when the sorrow and heart break becomes too painful; photos were too hard to look at and memories too heart-wrenching to think of...all things had to go and that includes the "fairy tale book".

Yes, I can hear you all asking what I have been doing these past three months since I am not blogging. Well, whatever that was going onto my blog went into my diary - yes, a book which I write in. So I wrote a lot, a lot in the past three months. And I also took this time to slowly heal. Yes, it was so hard at the beginning but now, I am on my road to recovery and am very much looking to a fresh start.

Life was hell and I struggled a lot but today as I look back on how far I have come since QX and I first broke up, I see a stronger Jill. Of course, there are times when I still break down into tears (oi, six years okay? it was just like going through a divorce!) but I know I am not a loser anymore...I am just a woman.

This new start in my life - no, I don't have a new man in my life yet - is going to be part of the baby steps I have taken and will be taking everyday towards a better future. And like the title, this is a new start and I have many to thank for giving me the chance to breathe again - my family, my friends, friends I thought I had lost, new friends, followers of my blog who sent me so many encouragements though I don't even know some of you. Three people whom I just have to say a big Thank You to : Sea cucumber cousin - who sent me many smses that made sense to keep me going. Candy - who always had and still have my back. Jolin aka Ah Lian - who accompanied me on many, many nights to drink (till I'm totally smashed); who listened to me talk (and she lets me talk all the time); who never once put QX down (at least not in my face); who gets Patrick to take pictures with me (he now knows my name. hah!) and who was always, always there.

So, the first entry on the new blog is going to be dedicated to all of you who were there. Because of you, I did not jump out of the window six floors down then (it would have been an ugly sight. yikes). Because of you, I found the courage to move on in the darkness. Because of you, I can now see that little bit of light. Because of you, I can now breathe again.

To the new start....here's a toast.