I need to be heartless

"Those that are heartless; once cared too much"

So true. God damn it.

I need to learn to be HEARTLESS.
Lived for 31 years now and I still haven't learn to be mean.

I need to live up to the Bitch reputation.

It's your fucking integrity, you retards

Honestly, I have been feeling a lot of anger in me whenever I think of this certain incident. No, not because I still love my ex-husband. But the fact that these people blatantly lied to me in my face.

I don't like lying. No, I don't. In fact, I hate liars. Not because I have now accepted God into my life. But because since I have learned how to differentiate nice people from Assholes, I came to learn that people with integrity DO NOT lie.

I was very pissed at my ex-husband's IC (IC as in in-charge. My ex-husband was in property) for covering up for my ex-husband and lying to me. Mind you, that IC - let's call him SC (I would love to term this as SHITTY CUNT but never mind) as these are his initials - was married and just had a baby in 2012. 

So for a man who has a family, you would think he would have some fucking common sense. No, he did not. Despite knowing my ex-husband and a fellow female agent are going out together, SC lied to me that my ex-husband was with him that night and covered his arse. 

And all the posts about Joseph Price's quotes on his Facebook disgusts me. Yes, seriously, fucking disgusting.

(ah yes, I saw SC's reply to my ex-husband, in EXACT WORDS : Glad to help you. I will need your help in future to lie to my wife.)

Then there is this mutual friend that called himself my friend. And tried to defend my ex-husband. To you, "my friend", FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

As a friend, you saw me trying my best to save my marriage. You saw me going through depression. You saw me losing weight rapidly within two weeks.  You saw me at a lost, not knowing what to do. You saw me trying to take my own life because I could not take it anymore. And all along, you and my ex-husband were going to Thai discos. And you knew my ex-husband was sleeping around with those Thai disco hookers. And you, "my friend", what did you do? You stood there and watched me like I am a clown.

Then, of course, there were the women that were lying along with my ex-husband.

I have been keeping quiet about these for the longest time. And I didn't tell everyone about it. Not because I am nice. I am a bitch in fact. The only reason I kept quiet was because I know how many families I would destroy, especially with all the text messages snapshots I have collected. 

And today, right into the new year, I am going to let it all out. 

So yes, to all the people who have lied to me : FUCK YOU VERY MUCH

And may Karma come around and fuck you in the arse with a cactus.